I don’t make those.
Well for one, I never stick to them. And two, I hate disappointing myself—I’m my worst critic. I have enough in my life to feel guilty over I don’t need one more thing added to the list. So for 2010 I know I’m going to TRY to adjust a few things.
Here is my list:
Work out a minimum of 3 days a week.
Just be happy or Don't sweat the small stuff
Send my books out (which also means finishing them).
Eat better—which means more veggies…blech (trust me I’m a carbivore)
Some of those things I’m going to try and accomplish scare the bajesus out of me, especially when I’m coming off of a dream where I gave up writing all together.
The thought doesn’t scare me as much as it should—which, scares me more.
It’s not that I don’t think my work is good, I do. Is it great…nope. And honestly that’s what bothers me. I’m a perfectionist, I feel as if I have to be the best I can be. Which in the scheme of writing can be completely detrimental to the craft, because in the scheme of things there is no right or wrong way to write—no way to BE perfect. This kills me and my O.C.D. So sometimes I think I might just be a “hobbyist” to writing, and others, it’s all I want. So as you can see this is my hardest goal for 2010.
All of these things come down to mind control, and I can tell you my mind is like Fort Knox, or a puppy with a squeaky toy. Once I make my mind up, it’s usually done. But if I decide to fight it—the same applies.
So what are you going to try to do to make 2010 better?
Oh and let me introduce you to a new member of the Kapkowski household: Maximus